Turning June and did nothing.

          I started to feel an urgent need for me to manage my blog and post things.. I am almost the last person posting something other than class materials in my class.

          To be honest, I'm not really a good writer.. not a long writer either. (You can see this easily through my postings and essays on this blog)  My writing skills both lack in quailty and quantity! Ah, hopeless. I never lived abroad (especially English-speaking countries) or never learned basic English properly. I made no efforts to write and speak better English. I was simply lucky. Luck is what brought my English here.
          I always become reluctant to press the 'publish' button whenever I post essays on my blog... I realize there are so many eyes out there, ready to read my essays and giggle at my errors. I try to revise more but it doesn't work that well. Also my main reader has a pen and a paper to evaluate my writing skills and can directly report this on my student record paper. Whenever I tried to start writing something to post here, I felt like thrown naked in the middle of a group of lions, ready to chew and swallow me up. I had to make lame excuses to make myself stop writing "inevitably" and do something else.
          And 'Coding' thing? That was one of the biggest factors that stopped me from entering my blogger page. I didn't know anything about it, but just heard other people saying it is extremely complicated and hard for amateurs. This slowly generated fear inside me of coding and even feel guilty for not doing what Mr. Menard wanted us to do.
          So, it was about generally two things : sense of inferiority and fear towards 'coding'. This slowly generated some kind of 'fear' inside me of blogging which made me avoid writing in English and forget about my blog here. 'It's just too much for me', I thought.
          But then, I just thought : this won't make any difference in the end. No matter how much I feel pressure about the blog or how much I struggle, doing nothing will never improve my English writing nor will grant me a good grade in English class. That's when I started to think, 'I need to do something here.' Writing whatever I want to talk about might never help me improve, but it's going to better than nothing, right? So finally, I started searching for templates and blog designing strategies on the internet, and applied them to mine. And that was yesterday(June 2nd).
          And today, as I am writing free essays and putting efforts into blog designs, I am finding this somewhat interesting and fun! Coding was a bit complicated but wasn't that hard. I'm also counting on what Mr. Menard told our class : 'grammar (and vocabulary) will improve as you write more.' Fear did nothing good to me. Confronting directly into what I have to do and trying to get it done was the answer. Stopping makes no changes.
          Uhhh.. I lost point here. (Who cares..) So, in conclusion, what I truely wanted to tell you(whoever that is) is that I AM GOING TO POST THINGS 'FIERCELY' FROM TODAY!!
So be prepared to visit my blog and read, guys! Thank you! : )

Oh, and by the way, I'd like to thank Mr. Menard for conveying me such nice lesson above (while I'm not sure rather he will read this or not).